Letting Go Of Regret & Overcoming Fears!

Hello all you lovely lot,

Did you all have a nice weekend? I hope so.  Mine was fair to middling as I was working mostly, but I did get to see Cinderella which was the cherry on my Sunday (despite seeing it on Saturday.)  Fantasy, big dresses, glitter & happily ever afters.  The impossible dream made reality for 90 or so minutes. . .

So today I wanted to chat about education, knowledge & learning.  My own (scholastic) experience can be summed up pretty quickly.  I got my leaving certificate from secondary school, did well in French, English & Art History.  Went to college the following year to study Culture & French. Got completely overwhelmed & distracted by nightlife & all the frills.  I failed a module, never repeated it & to my eternal detriment & regret I stupidly dropped out of college. 
But hindsights great & it was evident I wasn’t mature enough at the time.  I know that now & have stopped beating myself up over the could’ve beens.  Because I wouldn’t have met the people I’ve met, I wouldn’t have had the experiences I’ve had on the trajectory I did end up on.  There really is very little point in regretting things (although hard not to at times). 
It’s a fast track to robbing your happiness & focus from other things you could be doing to make yourself more content & wiser.  I really try to remember that.  To be fair I fail 90% of the time but I won’t stop trying. 

The following year I did a PLC course in French & got to spend a summer in Paris.  That was in 2001 & today 14 years later I still find myself strolling along the Seine at 6am watching the book sellers open their stalls whenever my mind wanders.  That’s my memory, for keeps & I can go there whenever I want.  No degree was required for me to gain it.

I’ve been to Paris about 5 or so times & like I said when I close my eyes I’m back there.  If I hadn’t have flunked college would I have this memory that I hold so dear? Who knows.  I remind myself of this whenever I think about visiting regretsville.  Usually a few times a week to be fair.  There are some things a university degree cannot buy you.  Do I still want one? Of course!
But I’ve been out of education for a loOong time, I got to clicking about on that there World Wide Web & happened upon a plethora of free courses . Yup you heard me . .  FREE!!

Fair enough they aren’t accredited, but that doesn’t make the knowledge gained through doing them any less real.  The brain is a muscle, just like legs, eyes, arms etc & it needs flexed every now & then to keep it fit. 

I started my diploma in Mental Health Studies tonight.  The catastophiste in me wants to say ‘oh but it’s not a real diploma’ But I’ve given that part of me the night off & I’m getting stuck in to my course. 
I’d love to do an accredited one at some stage so that’s my new goal.  
I was reminded tonight by my best friend of something I said when I was a kid “I’ll never be able to run, I’m not fit”.  I’ve since forced myself to become fit & have two 10ks under my belt with a 3rd on the horizon in July.  Running used to be an impossibility.  So I just never tried.  A scary thought wouldn’t you agree?  How many things have you put off doing just because you thought you might not be able to? 
What’s really holding you back from TRYING!?? Nothing! Not a thing, if you fail you fail, but sure just try it again eh. 

I have days where my goal isn’t to run 6 miles, it isn’t to do a degree.  Somedays my goal is to just get out of bed.  If you know me in real life you’ll know I’ll happily chat away about my experience with depression, it affects us all one way or another so it should be spoken about out loud. 

I’m mentioning it because your goals are YOUR goals & they DO NOT & SHOULD NOT be compared to anyone elses.  No matter what it is it’s your achievement & you should be nothing short of delighted with it. 
So if there’s something you want to try then just try it.  You’ll surprise yourself for the better. I promise.

Thanks so much for reading,

~LoVe & huGs ~




Thank You X Infinity

Hello there,

I started my blog over a month ago when I was in a panic about Christmas.  As with a lot of people I feel a tad more depressed at that time of year so I wanted to try occupy my head with something other than how utterly amazing I should be feeling all because it was Christmas, because quite frankly I wasn’t feeling it & I’ve a tendency to mope & get pulled into a dark place.

But not this year I refused to bow down to the black dog & instead I busied myself with writing my reviews & reading other blogs when I felt the familiar pang of dread wash over me. 
People put Advent calenders up counting down to the big day, I tend to count the days down until January. 

AnyhoO this blog has helped me no end, I’ve joined the blogosphere family & in doing that I’ve got chatting to some amazing people, namely YOU!! & read some great blogs, YOUR BLOGS!!

So I wanted to say a big ole thankya to each of you for clicking my page & reading my wee blurbs & for writing yours, you’ve made me very happy indeed.  I’m super excited for 2015 so I can continue onwards & upwards & see what else I can write & read about.

If you do stop by be sure to say hellO so I can check out your blog!
Also, if you’re on Instagram my username there is Juniper82 so add me & say hellO! 
Or On Twitter I’m Maria_Vivre .
If I’m following you on here I’d like to add you to my IG & Twitter toO!

Again folks *ThAnK yoU sO MuCH*   

~ LoVe & huGs ~



Taking a leap . . .

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So here I am  . . At the grand old age of 32 starting a Blog . . How original eh . . What it will be about I don’t reeeally know yet . . & will most likely go unread but ho hum . . I’ve wanted to do this for a while but have just been a big scaredy cat at the idea of committing my internal musings to the interwab for all eternity . .

Like a great many people (depending on the day) I either live with depression or struggle with it . .
So I thought I’d take proactive steps to try & feel less depressed by giving myself (at first) monthly achievable goals at this writing malarkey . .
Again, like a lot of people I get especially down over the Christmas season . .
So here I am starting my blog on the cusp of December in a bid to keep my head occupied & the barking dog at bay . .  .
I figure I’m going to blog about things that interest me . .
Makeup, mental health, music, animals, reading, cooking, TV, crafts, travel & whatever else takes my fancy . . .

I’d love to meet some nice people along the way & am looking forward to discovering lots of great blogs!! ☺

*LoVe & HuGs*